Hey everyone! We have another little update we wanted to share with you all, thanks for being on this journey with us. The last few months the Ham’s have had quite a few changes to our lives. I’ve decided to go full cancer killer and have radically changed my diet which obviously affects what food we’ve been buying and cooking. I’ve also been going down tons of rabbits holes from books to podcasts to youtube videos and so much more. Sometimes it feels like the rabbit holes can be too deep or distracting but we’ve decided to go all in so if one aspect doesn’t feel appropriate to my condition I just move to the next. In many ways of course it’s overwhelming but at the same time helps to make me feel a little power over this situation.
As I’ve mentioned in other posts I’ve been doing mTor infusions every week and after doing 11 infusions of this cancer treatment, it was time to do a CT scan and see if this stuff is working. Once that date was on the calendar, the fear set in and I tried my hardest to stay distracted, hopeful and prayerful about what the scan might show. In the last 2 years I have had 2 extremely scary scan results where doctors are shaking their heads and looking at me in disbelief. All of those feelings from the past and uneasiness about the future play a part in what some have called scanxiety, which is totally a real thing. This scan of course could have gone any possible way. My last one showed literally more than a dozen tumors of various sizes (a couple the size of softballs) growing rapidly. So we had to really stop ourselves from going into those dark thoughts.
I did the scan and then it’s just waiting time… A few days later, Robert and I went over the results with my oncologist at our usual weekly appointment. If the results were good, then we stay on the mTor drug that I have been getting by IV each week. If they were not good, it would mean potentially switching to a different (harsher) chemo or whatever my oncologist recommended.
The scan results showed… shrinkage! Glory, hallelujah! After my surgery, they did a scan to get a baseline of the tumor(s) that were left. The surgeons were able to get almost everything, but there was one that was tough to get so they left that one to be taken care of by systemic treatment. It measured 5.9cm at the baseline scan and now is 3.5cm! It shrunk by almost half! There are also no new growths, which is a huge praise as well! I had so many pop up in such a short amount of time, that this is wonderful news. It was really hard for us to not just break down and hug our doctor, but we waited until we got into the hallway. Definitely some tears in there, but on the cancer floor it seems to be an appropriate reaction!
I truly believe that the drug is working, but also all of the proactive health decisions I am making at home and YOUR prayers are what is holistically helping me in God’s perfect plan. I am so grateful and can’t thank you enough for all the sweet messages, prayers and well wishes you have sent my way.
In His perfect timing, I feel so much relief as we head into the holiday season where I can be wife and mom, my favorite job titles, and help make this season special for my family who have been through so much this year. I did make a vegan, raw pumpkin pie which my fam was not that excited about – haha. Blessings to you all, let’s continue to beat the crap out of this 2020!
If you aren’t sure what I’m talking about, here are the links to previous blog posts that tell the story ;).